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Fighting For His Life

IHOP waiter, first day on the job
Taking orders while fighting for his life.

With trembling hands he writes,
And smiles while fighting for his life.

Left forearm displays gang tattoo
He’s now fighting for his life.

Jail tattoo on right forearm betrayed efforts
For redemption while fighting for his life.

Mixed up orders at adjacent table brought
Complaints as he was fighting for his life.

Manager called and warned him
He was fighting for his life.

Amidst the strife he flashed a smile
And continues fighting for his life.

Adjacent table shouted “Hey! Where’s our toast?”
Our tattooed waiter continues fighting for his life.

He whispers “Excuse me I’ll be right back.”
And nervously continues fighting for his life.

“Hey! we need more jam here!” neighbor table
Shouts and waiter continues fighting for his life.

Jam delivered. Waiter returns and with trembling
Fingers writes our order while fighting for his life.

Adjacent table said “This place sucks.”
And stiffed the waiter fighting for his life.

Order delivered with smile and stuttering hands
He continues fighting for child and wife.



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Last night I went into a deep pondering state, the soft twilight glow just before wakefulness slowly slips into deep sleep.

I was in a state of flow, my mind wandering aimlessly about like a neighborhood cat that wanders the neighborhood sniffing this and that until something particular in the environment, like the sight of a lizard perfectly still on the garden wall, will arrest the cats awareness and dramatically transfix the cat so that all else except the lizard recedes into a gray fog.

While my mind was still wandering aimlessly, for no particular reason I thought about the times that I jogged or ran over the years and concern would arise over whether I could make it to the finish line.

But as I approach the ultimate finish line there is no doubt that I will cross the bright finish line that is fast approaching. My bag of bones will surely get there, but what then?

But before the beguiling question, “What then?” (What happens after death?) could be answered the question “what now?” arose bright as the sun and transfixed my mind so that all else except the question “what now” receded into the cloudy background.

My mind perceived that in every age and almost in every culture sages observed that as long as we breathe we must avoid making a contribution to the chaos extant in the universe. Put another way, a more positive way, we should continually strive to contribute to the wellbeing of the universe.

While still in a state of flow and with the question “what now?” bright as the sun before me, and all else having receded into the shadowy background, my mind began to reflect on how I would choose to spend my scant remaining days on our planet. The question “What now? What now?” repeated itself over and over again like a sword smith’s hammer striking the steel blade into submission. What conclusions could I reasonably reach?

When the fires of passion have been tamped down and our tank is empty and we are running on fumes it’s relatively easy to avoid contributing to the chaos of the universe. We simply have no energy left to keep stirring the pot.

“What now?” as I fast approach the finish line clarifies into the positive question, “What must   I do to discharge my duty to contribute to the wellbeing of the universe?

Certainly nothing as trivial as scoring on a huge investment, or ferretting out the latest cuisine to satisfy my fading palate, or travel to exotic places. What now then?

To me the inescapable conclusion is that I simply must be. Be authentic, be loving, be aware of others and be compassionate towards them.

To the extent we just “be, we contribute to the wellbeing of the universe. “Being,” requires no great expense of energy, we can “be” while running on fumes.

Some will argue that greed is the driving force of the universe and one must do all that can be done to accumulate wealth and power. They argue that it’s the law of the universe as demonstrated by black holes gobbling up neighboring stars.

While this argument has solid acceptance with the extremely wealthy intent on accumulating more wealth even at the cost of surrendering their humanity to the forces of greed and corruption this argument did not appeal to my mind.

While my mind was in its state of flow it became clear to me that the better argument is that it’s better to be like the golden sun then a black hole.

The golden sun, merely by being, warms our bodies and brings us pleasure and happiness and helps trees grow on the mountain’s bosom. Being like the golden sun contributes to the wellbeing of the universe and has the added benefit of bringing us joy as well. 



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Let your love flow outward through the universe, to its height, its depth, its broad extent, a limitless love, without hatred or enmity. Then as you stand or walk, sit or lie down, as long as you are awake, strive for this with a one-pointed mind; your life will bring heaven to earth. – Sutta Nipata

The Empyrean crackles and flows

Through eternity’s pinhole door

Pure Love flows at sunrise

And a universe is born.


He raped her and called it “making love.” In wars he slaughtered mothers and children—for love of country he said; He slaughtered millions in gas ovens—for love of nation the Austrian said; He killed millions in the gulags and the Russian said—for love of motherland of course. Of course? Of course, there is no love in rape, there is no love in murder, and there is no love in war.

Love has various meanings—romantic love, familial love, sexual love, and Pure Love.


We’re talking here about Pure Love. Pure Love is a soul serene, free of attachments, no toxic emotions on its screen. Pure Love is gentle and kind; Pure Love does not envy nor is it greedy. Pure Love rejoices in authenticity; Pure Love is not Orwellian nor is it Machiavellian.

Pure Love is like the radiant sun, the golden ball of joy; it opens my ears to Puccini Arias, opens my eyes to morning mists in flower fields, and opens my heart to compassion and authenticity, Pure Love is serene like sea birds riding the breeze; it’s like a mother’s smile, and a thousand roses offering themselves to me.

Pure Love flowed at sunrise, a sea bursting from eternity;

When the sea calmed down, people, planets and stars were born..

 To understand Pure Love, one needs to direct their heart, mind and soul to the beginning of the universe. The Hindu Rig-Veda asks the question “whence comes this creation?” The Christian bible answers “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God;” The Koran proclaims “Where so ever you turn, there is the Face of God.”

Pure Love has various names—Primordial Consciousness, Primordial Energy, Jehovah, Allah, God, Jesus, Buddha, Para Brahman, Shiva and Pure Love.

Scientists say that in the beginning a sea of limitless energy appeared in the void; then galaxies, stars, planets, particles and wondrous life forms deployed.

Pure Love is unchanging reality; an immutable, illimitable, and indestructible sea of energy in which planets, stars and people play. I swim in the sea like a fish, oblivious to Pure Love’s sway.


How do I open my eyes and heart and let the sunshine pour in. How do I experience the golden ball of joy while swimming in the sea of Love?

From pure awareness Pure Love arises. When toxic emotions melt away, my eyes and heart open to Pure Love’s existence. I see incoming broad white sails above the frothy foam and my arms open wide to embrace the undistorted light. When I’m in a state of flow the world enthralls me as if I’m listening to a Puccini aria, playing in a symphony, singing in a choir, or standing under a clear blue sky watching the golden ball of joy sail by.

 With pure awareness of the flower

Heart awakened to Pure Love’s Power

Judging a rose—it is past its prime, the stem is too long or the stem is too short—bars me from experiencing the essence of the rose. When judging a rose, up pops a barrier between me and the rose. The rose I perceive is kept at a distance while I compare it to the rose in my head—here I stand and the rose is there in the distance. When observing a rose without thought or censure, pure awareness unites me with the rose and its essence—and an aha! moment is the creation.

Censuring a rattlesnake—it’s poisonous, slimy, and dangerous—prevents me from experiencing its essence. What I experience instead is agitation, loathing and dread. Away I rush and return with a rake in my hand and beat the snake to death.

If I remain calm and not succumb to agitation, loathing and dread, I fully experience the snake instead. I see sun sparkling in its eyes, and the beauty of the diamond patterned skin; I see gleaming fangs and hypnotic rhythms of its dancing tongue. When emotional barriers are removed, an aha! moment in pure awareness unites me with the snake and its essence.

Judging others—they are ugly or beautiful, nasty or kind, stupid or blind—prevents me from experiencing their essential goodness; when attending to others while judging them, trying to control them, sell them, hold on to them, fear them, or seduce them, what I experience is anxiety, separation, anger, fear and loneliness.

When observing others without hidden agendas or toxic emotions my mind is clear and my heart is still; and my boundaries expand to encompass the other.

I see the other as never before. I see radiance in their straightforward eyes when they are happy, I see pain in their downcast eyes when they are grumpy. I see great beauty in their contours and shadows from the morning light. Beyond skin, flesh and bones, I see their goodness illuminated by Pure Love’s radiance. I experience the unity of our essence and the joy of an aha! moment.

Judging myself—I wish I were a better person, I hate my friend and hate myself for hating my friend and I’m no good for feeling this way—prevents me from loving myself as I really am. Is it possible to love myself as I really am and the Pure Love residing in me?

I observe what happens when I censure myself. When I am angry with myself and I think: “I should not be angry.” the censorious thought creates a duality. I am angry is the reality, but I think I should not be angry is an image I have in my head. The tension between the reality of my anger at my friend and the thought “I should not be angry” creates anxiety and self-reproach, which accelerates in a downward depression.

When I accept reality, there is no tension between what I observe and the ideal I have in my head. Anxiety yields to authenticity and my anger melts away, maybe not quickly—but it’s a start.

Awareness Exercise to Broaden Your Boundaries

I do this awareness exercise while observing someone I love. When I cannot see the person, I observe with my mind’s eye. I relax and let my mind be still. I experience the various levels of my loved one’s being. I am aware of my loved one’s skin, flesh, and bones. Next I focus my pure awareness on the molecules, atoms, and subatomic particles, the building blocks of the skin, flesh, and bones. Next I focus on my loved one’s mind, heart and soul and finally focus on the concentration of primordial energy, the divine ground of all existence, and feel the connection that unites me and my loved one.

I do not judge any quality. If a judgment or other thought enters your mind, I do not resist or censure myself for having the thought. I just observe the thought as part of my reality. I focus my pure awareness on my loved one’s face, then eyes, ears, nose, mouth, and body. If an emotion arises, I do not resist it. I observe the emotion and trace its origins back to the cascade of molecules throughout my body. I just observe and make no judgment whether it is bad or good.

I continue focusing my attention on my loved one and observe telltale signs of emotions and feelings—fear, anger, sadness, joy, pleasure, and contentment. I sense the empathy arising for my loved one.

I broaden my boundaries to include all beings.

I repeat this exercise while focusing my mind’s eye on the one I like the least.

I repeat this exercise while focusing my mind’s eye on the nations of the world and the people in them.

I repeat this awareness exercise while observing some other living thing—a flower, insect, bird, wild animal, or pet. I see it with love and pure awareness and I see as I’ve never seen before.

I repeat this awareness exercise while observing myself. I focus my awareness on all levels of my being until I reach my essential goodness.


Note: Aliska Webb was an ebook publishing pioneer. In 1999 her startup company,, published one of the very first e-books, a collection of short stories and essays about parenting.

I contributed this essay; I believe it is as relevant today as it was then.

(With helpful commentaries)

The goal of bad parenting is an unhappy emotionally disturbed child. It would not be unreasonable to hope that assiduous training would produce a wildly sociopathic child.

Discipline and training will give you the skills you need to practice the art of bad parenting.

When your son first wakes up in the morning, when he gets dressed and asks where his clothes are, when he brushes his teeth, when he eats breakfast and when he prepares to leave the house for school all furnish you with good opportunities to practice your bad parenting skills.

Give yourself a good bad parenting morning workout by taking advantage of these inexhaustible opportunities.

The evenings present their own limitless opportunities to practice bad parenting. Some of you might think that two workouts per day are excessive.

But bear in mind that you will be spending time with your children anyhow, and it takes no more time and effort to be a bad parent than it does to be a good parent.

RULE 1. Ignore your children:

Comments: Start when the child is still an infant. The best way to ignore an infant is to close the door.

If you can still hear your child cry, buy some earplugs.

With practice you will be able to read a tabloid without earplugs even when your child is screaming for attention while lying at your feet.

Do not succumb to the human instinct to pick up and cuddle and sooth your child.

Keep your eye on what’s important—becoming the world’s worst parent.

It’s only hard to resist at the early stages.

You’ll know that you are well on your way to becoming a bad parent when the urge to cuddle and sooth is gradually replaced by an urge to smack the child.

As your child gets older, practice using the mantra “Umm” to help focus your inattention.

Your daughter is telling you about the gold star she got at school, “Umm” her as you continue on with what ever you were doing.

Do not smile, do not make eye contact.

Do not even look sideways in the general direction of your child because she might perversely interpret your sideways glance as a spark of interest.

Showing interest in your child makes it extremely difficult, if not impossible, to become a bad parent.

When the child becomes a constant screamer, or withdraws, or becomes overly cranky or aggressive, you’ll know that you’re advancing towards bad parenthood.

RULE 2. Criticize your children:

Comments: Criticizing is easy, and opportunities abound.

It is impossible to overstate the importance of criticism in helping you become a bad parent.

Tell the child as soon as it wakes up in the morning that it has bad breath.

Be dramatic!

Say, “Whoee! Your breath stinks!”

Tell them the bedroom is a mess, worse then a pigsty.

After the child is dressed and groomed, find fault with the dress and grooming.

If the child looks perfect, tell her she took too long to get ready and now her breakfast is cold.

A really good bad parent can criticize non-stop from the time the child first opens its eyes in the morning until the child disappears down the street headed for school.

With time you’ll notice more and more things to criticize.

The child can be too skinny, too porky, too dumb, or too bright for its own good, and posture is bad.

The child can be irresponsible, not grown up or too grown up; it can be lazy or too hyper (what are you, on dope?).

If your son lacks your sense of humor tell him he’s dull.

If your daughter was not blessed with your good looks be sure to criticize her looks, large nose, small eyes, stringy hair and so on.

The list is endless, and that is what makes it so easy to criticize.

If you take advantage of all the golden opportunities to criticize you will move easily and quickly along the road of bad parenting.

Although it is easy to criticize, an urge to show exuberant satisfaction with some outstanding quality or accomplishment might occasionally pop up, especially at the early stages.


You can undo weeks of bad parent exercises with just one well-deserved praise.

Look for signs of lowered self-esteem—a slouch, slovenly appearance, lethargy—to let you know that you’re on the right track.

RULE 3. Do not discuss; dictate to your children:

Comments: Bad parenting requires that you dictate to your children.

No matter how many times your children try to engage you in a conversation, avoid discussing anything with them.

Don’t engage them in meaningful conversation or explore the meandering path of authentic enquiry with them.

If you son asks “Why is the sky blue, mama?” head him off at the pass by responding with a voice dripping with condescension: “The sky isn’t blue” (make sure “dummy” is implied in the tone of voice) “everyone knows that it only looks that way.

Now, leave me alone, can’t you see I’m busy?”

Dedicated bad parents get exceptionally good at this.

By the time their child reaches puberty a glaring stare is enough to convey the message.

You can tell your efforts to become a bad parent are paying off when your child no longer can express himself.

When you try to engage your son in a conversation his face will harden with a smirk and he stares you down without uttering a sound, except possibly an expletive like “shit,”or, if you have trained exceptionally hard he might mouth the words “fuck you.”

To arrive at the point where the child audibly pronounces the words requires the highest level of bad parent training.

If you are willing to put in the effort, some day you will hear the words that will let you know you are approaching the highest level of bad parenting.

RULE 4. Vent your anger on your children:

Comments: After you become proficient at criticizing your children (See Rule Number Two) and you want to advance to a higher level of bad parenting, try coupling your criticism with bursts of venomous anger and observe how the anger greatly magnifies a little criticism.

Timing is important.

Practice until your criticism is mindlessly accompanied by a wild burst of anger every time.

Once you have your anger trained so it comes out automatically without your having to think, it is easy to ratchet up your bad parenting to the level of violence.

The combination of criticism, anger, and violence is a powerful vehicle that can propel you at jet-like speed along the path of bad parenting.

When a son comes home late from school rage and shout and slap him around.

If he wets the bed, yank him out of his sound sleep and shove him towards the toilet while shouting at the top of your lungs how stupid and baby-like his bed-wetting is.

Pull down his pajamas and give him a frenzied spanking.

A world class bad parent will also smack the son’s offending organ.

However, unless you intend to become a professional world class bad parent this extreme training is unnecessary.

Signs which let you know that you are making great progress are your son’s aggressive behavior towards his siblings and friends, torturing insects, birds and pets, sullen withdrawal of the child into his own world, always avoiding you, and your son’s friends unwilling to enter your home.

Less obvious signs are loss of appetite, undue meekness, lack of concentration and plummeting school grades.

RULE 5. Do not be moderate in confrontations with your children.

Comments: When done consistently and with ever increasing energy, overreaction during confrontations with your children is one of the surest ways to remain on the path of bad parenting.

The nice thing about overreaction is that it is so easy to do and yet produces such spectacular results.

When your daughter spills a glass of milk react as if you were witnessing a devastating train wreck caused by her.

Shout, scream, rant and rave.

Throwing something at your daughter will create a memorable event for her and greatly improve your bad parenting skills.

A subtle ancillary benefit is that overreaction places all of the child’s conduct from not washing her hands to killing the cat in the same category.

The child’s nervous system is constantly on a high state of alert and the child fails to develop any insights or understanding.

Your child’s escalating nervousness will let you know that you are moving along the path of bad parenting.

ONE SMALL CAVEAT: Everything has its limits—even immoderation.

While extreme physical abuse of your child resulting in its death might seem to qualify you for being the world’s worst parent, it in fact disqualifies you from ever becoming the worst parent.

It is self-defeating.

Do not attempt it.

If the child dies, you are no longer a parent in relation to that child and are disqualified from claiming to be a bad parent insofar as the deceased child is concerned.

RULE 6. Set bad examples for your children:

Comments: You can start being a bad parent even before the child is born.

As soon as you become pregnant, start smoking, use alcohol on a daily basis, and use whatever drugs you can get your hands on.

When you child is born, you will already be far down the road of bad parenting.

Your child will be underweight, irritable, impaired in most of its functions, and depending on the amount and duration of drug use, your child will be a drug addict at birth.

As soon as your child becomes aware of what’s going on around the house, bicker with your spouse in the child’s presence.

Almost all husbands and wives know how to bicker, so that part is easy.

Just be sure you do it in front of the children.

Bickering outside the presence of the children does very little to promote bad parenting. Your son or daughter becoming more and more whiney is a clear sign that your bickering in front of the child is working.

Racism, prejudice, ethnocentricity, and intolerance are powerful tools to improve bad parenting skills.

By being parents you are in a unique position to influence how your child develops.

Your child’s brain is constantly creating neural pathways and altering old ones in response to what the child hears, feels, sees and even to what it thinks.

Flood the child’s brain with degrading remarks about ethnic, religious, and social groups, and regions and countries.

You will know that you have acquired this powerful tool for bad parenting when you hear your child start using terms like “honky,” “nigger,” “kyke,” “beaner,” “faggot” “Jap,” “gook” and “keto.”
Determined bad parents, won’t overlook the opportunity to destroy their child’s ability to see a spider’s wondrous complexity, a snake’s lustrous beauty, a rodent’s resourcefulness and the love dogs, cats, horses, and other animals have for humans.

It is easy.

Simply scream and holler your head off each time you see a little critter.

If your child is observing a critter from a safe distance, yank him away as you holler “stay away from there” and tell him how much the tiny critters disgust you.

You will know that you have made progress in this area when you notice that your son responds to little critters by shutting his brain down with unreasoning fear and loathing.

CAVEAT: Do not expose your child to love, compassion, uplifting music, and authenticity.

It has been demonstrated in exhaustive studies that doing so can nullify bad parenting efforts far more than anything else can.

RULE 7. Be dishonest with your children:

Comments: If you cannot give up authenticity, you can never train enough to become a bad parent.

It is almost impossible for authenticity and bad parenting to coexist in the same household.

It is easy to become dishonest if you do it in small steps.

For example lie to your son about why you were late picking him up from school, (He doesn’t even know the game of bridge).

Lie to your daughter about trivial things so you can move up to more important things like lying about how the car got smashed.

Get your daughter involved by asking her to go along with the story.

If she is disinclined, let her know that you need her to lie so you can keep the insurance down.

Brag to your son about how much extra change you got and involve him by giving him the change to buy some candy.

Let your children know how clever you were when you bought your Nordstrom dress with the intention of returning it after you wore it to the party.

In hardly no time at all you will have etched dishonesty into your child’s brain until he or she can lie, cheat and steal smoothly and easily.

This is a sure sign that your are making splendid progress.

Keep up the good work.

RULE 8. Set unreasonable rules and enforce them:

Comments: This rule is the foundation of the most strenuous of all bad parenting workouts.

Setting unreasonable rules for your children may seem like a good effort at bad parenting but it has no lasting real effect unless you enforce them.

Enforcement of this rule leads to mentally and physically demanding effort on your part.

Prepare yourself for an onslaught of besieging confrontations, which never seem to end.

You’ll feel like the last remaining soldier of Custer’s last stand at Little Bighorn.

Each household has a different set of dynamics. You need to experiment to discover which one’s work best in your home.

In some homes, a rule requiring all children to remain in their rooms after sunset might be accepted by a child who is a loner, and loves to read, especially if you have been working on bad parenting by bickering with your spouse incessantly.

In other homes where the children are gregarious and outgoing you might encounter flaming, screaming opposition accompanied by violence, or at least the threat of violence.

So keep experimenting.

However don’t be satisfied with merely establishing an unreasonable rule.

Keep changing the rule. This leads to much turmoil. When your home is in turmoil you’ll know that your bad parenting exercises are working for you.

A variation of the “changing the rule exercise” is the “enforcement/relaxation technique.”

If the rule is “no watching television on school nights” relax the rule during the week.

Then when your daughter is enthralled by her favorite program on Friday night, turn off the set and remind her that it’s a school night.

She’ll of course rant and rave and tell you (actually she’ll holler at you) that tomorrow is Saturday and there is no school.

Holler back, “I don’t care, this is a school night and rules are rules.”

This exercise is guaranteed to greatly improve your bad parenting skills. A nice advantage of this technique is that it can be used with the computer just as effectively as with the television.

RULE 9. Do not respect your children:

Comments: Respect for children is inconsistent with bad parenting.

A lot of parents working on bad parenting skills fall into the trap of respecting their children.

This reduces the efficacy of bad parent training.

One easy way to disrespect your children is to eliminate “please,” “thank you,” and “excuse me” from your vocabulary insofar as your children are concerned.

Avoid saying “Would you please pass the salt.”

Say “gimme the salt.”

And of course never say “thanks” unless it’s appropriate to add “for nothing,” like “thanks for nothing, dummy”

If you accidentally bump into one of your children never ever say “excuse me.”

Saying, “excuse me” will increase their self-respect but decrease your bad parenting skills.

Ignore your daughter while she pours her heart out to you.

When a new book your son has just read excites him and he is trying to tell you how good it is, cut him off.

A good bad parenting technique for cutting off a child is to say, “I can’t understand a word your saying.”

You’re slurring your words and what your saying doesn’t make any sense.”

Faithfully following this rule of bad parenting is sure to deepen and widen the chasm that your bad parenting has opened between you and your children.

You’ll know your efforts under this rule are producing results when you notice hurt expressions on your children’s faces, a defeated slouch in their postures, and listless leaden steps.

RULE 10. Do not trust your children:

Comments: Nothing does more to improve relations between a parent and child and nothing is more inimical to bad parenting then genuine trust.

So avoid it at all costs.

The distrust must be manifested.

If the distrust is not manifested the child might naively assume that you trust her.

When cross-examining your daughter about where she was and what she did the previous night be explicit.

Say right out, “I don’t trust you little lady, and I am going to check up on what you tell me. So you better tell me the truth.”

And be sure to check up on what she tells you.

Call her friends and cross-examine them. Don’t worry about appearing to be like Captain Queeg; chances are your children are too young to have seen the Cain Mutiny.

Anyhow serious bad parenting devotees do not worry about what their children think.


Combining rules produce enormous synergistic effects provided it is done with a great deal of thought and skillful dedication.

Do not attempt the rule-combination technique until you have mastered the individual rules.

The following illustration should be enough to get you started on this advanced level of training.

Rule 6, setting a bad example, works superbly well with Rule 2, which deals with criticizing.

Set a bad example for your daughter with vulgar language.

When your daughter picks up this habit she will present you with a constant barrage of criticizable language.

If your daughter challenges you by pointing out that she is merely following your example, immediately practice Rule 5 and vent your anger while shouting, “Do as I say, not as I do.”

Rule combinations lead to the highest pinnacle of bad parenting.

The vista will reveal chaos swirling around your home and produce in your mind and heart the certainty that you have finally become the world’s worst parent.


Bad parenting is not for everyone.

If after you have given bad parenting a fair trial and you discover that bad parenting is not for you, you can take effective steps to unwind the bad parenting process.

It is easier to unwind the bad parenting process then you might think.

Just look at the rules above and do their opposite. It’s that simple.

Do not ignore your children, do not criticize them; discuss things with your children and explore with them the meandering path that leads to truth.

Do not vent your anger on your children.

Be moderate, do not overreact but act as a loving guide to your children and be a good example for them.

Be honest with your children.

Respect them; trust them.

The most effective rule you can apply to reverse the bad parenting process is, “love your children unconditionally and accept them warts and all.”

In spite of what you might think, your children really are human, and humans are never perfect.

Raging at your children, beating them, insulting them and cowering, them will not make them perfect.

But as Dante pointed out six hundred years ago, love spares no one who is loved from loving.

Love transforms us and the one we love.

So if you discover that bad parenting is not your cup of tea, loving your children might be a good option.

It’s worth a try.

Send your comments to me, Neil Bezaire, at I would enjoy hearing from you. Attention will be paid.




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All thrown from same clay
Except for the prism eyes
That perturb the Light.
My eyes twist and bend the light.
And I am sure yours do too.
Each day my eyes change,
And I’m unaware which are
Prisms for the day.
Are they the prism-eyes which
Colors and shade my meanings?
The anger prism
Rushes toxic adrenaline
Making brain angry.
I see loving family
Through hot downpours of red rain.
Jingoistic eyes
Tattooed on brain by others
Curtains my vision,
Projects shadows on others
Blinding me to light within.
Nations jingo eyes
Bring on war and destruction.
Poured into Mars’s cup
Nation’s sons and daughter’s blood
Is slurped by the black dogs of war.
Ethnocentric eyes
Look down from the haughty heights
And with heavy thumb
Weigh the relative merits
Me and mine are always best.
Emotions bluster
Through my interior realm
Forging Prism-eyes
That see red rage, gloom, despair,
Blackness, absent angels there.
Through prism-eyes of
Greed doubt and fear I’m besieged
And insecure even while
Kissed by angles all pure white
My heart’s never calm at rest.
Sadness prism-eyes
All things look gray to blackness
Refusing to see
Overspreading brilliant sky
Unfading cherry blossoms.
Jealous prism-eyes
Always infidelities
The green eyed monster
Everywhere I spy is there
Devouring heart and soul.
Censure prism-eyes
Light flames of irritation,
Annoyance, anger, hatred.
And harden my heart in stone.
My heart cannot rest serene.
Despair prism eyes
See all as dank and dark.
I withdraw from life.
Death opens wide its portal
Fear what’s on the other side.
Earth serenely sails
The cosmic sea midst the stars.
Prism eyes of Joy
Like serene clouds in the blue
I sail to my unknown fate.
Through prism eyes of
Love, beauty is everywhere.
Through the porous clay
See the radiance within
From nothing am I estranged.
When all prisms drop
I clearly see incoming
White sails hovering, 
Embrace the night!, the bright light!
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We are born into pain; You probably don’t remember screaming when you poked your head into the world and got slapped for it; but you know that is the way it works from seeing it happen to others. Later in life we’ll stub our toe, (boy does that ever hurt), we might be rejected by our first love, (and that is way more painful than the pain of a stubbed toe). I imagine the worst pain would be the unimaginable pain resulting from Sophie’s Choice. Sophie while under the boot of her Nazi guard was given the choice of  keeping only one of her two children;  the child she chose, lived; the other child died. Healthy minds just naturally want to avoid pain. 

The healthy mind is drawn towards pleasure like honey bee is drawn towards a flower. We believe that pleasure will bring us happiness, and it usually does…for awhile. Scientific studies have shown that once we are satiated with anything the pleasure recedes like the outgoing tide and we are left with unpleasant feelings and we ask ourselves, “Is that all there is, why I am not happy?” And so we seek immoderately more—more luxurious houses, more sex, drugs, food, jewelry, adventure—anything to stimulate our senses in a pleasurable way.

But we ruefully discover multiple million dollar houses frustrate us because we can live in only one at a time; multiple sex partners exhaust us physically and emotionally; more drugs cause us to stumble over the edge into the abyss; more food bloats the body; more jewelry and we look like a Christmas tree; and more adventures in the outside world impoverishes our inner world. 

We seek pleasure because we believe that pleasure will bring us happiness. But when we explore our inner world we note that although self gratification might bring pleasure, it does not bring happiness by its side. 

 When I explore my inner world I discover which things bring me pleasure and which things bring me joy.

Self-gratification brings me pleasure.

Authenticity, awareness, acceptance, and compassion bring me joy.

I observe that—although I might incidentally amass wealth, build monuments or wield power—my destiny is to expand and deepen within myself authenticity, awareness, acceptance and compassion—in a word: goodness. 

Google has developed a culture of goodness.

Google has an ongoing program developed and presented by, an engineer, Chad-Meng Tan who, was hired by Google its infancy. After a few years of writing programs, Chade-Meng Tan was inspired to develop a program that would bring out the goodness in people. With the encouraging blessing of Google he developed a seminar that is given on an ongoing basis to roomfuls of Google engineers. The program has leaked out of the Google campus and has spread into the world wide businesses community.

The free seminar is avail on line at:

If you decide to watch the seminar I suggest you be sure to watch it clear through to the end because Chade-Meng Tan does a fantastic job of pulling it all together at the closing. 

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